Sunday, April 30, 2006
went to meet eliz at 5pm at small mac.
celebrate her birthday. =)
ate at pasta.
took neoprints. coolios.
met weiquan and aaron. played pool.
aaron left halfway.
played till about 9.30pm.
they went home.
i went court.
sat at court talk talk awhile.
with...
`weida `"rongshao" [lol] `daniel `zheng yuan `terence `xiao alvin `weilun `leon `bird `da jie `mark
den went to eat prata until 12 plus.
all went daniel's house play mahjong.
play until 2 plus.
alvin and weilun sent me home.
stupid boy.
played with de lift door.
i was stuck inside
de lift wouldn't go up and de door oso dun wanna open.
so weilun and i pry open de door.
zzz. see la play.
zzz. reached home at about 3am.
ya.
lol.
and its not 4.16am.
ZZZZ. lol
k end of story.
me_________`e-leen *
4:07 AM
Friday, April 28, 2006
oh cool.
my throat hurts.
URGH!
freaks freaks freaks.
my voice~~~~!
my time-table is shag!!
9 to 6. OMG.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
okay i'm bored.
should i join CCA?
zzz.
my schedule pack enough leh.
SIGH.
freaks.
wads de slackest cca? lib club?
LOL.
omg no.
if i have to i'll join rock-climbing.
ROCKS.
XD
okay freaks.
steph showed me this picture of this guy in her class.
FREAKS.
so shuai.
NOT FAIR.
i wanna transfer to IT.
LOL.
wahhas no i'm joking.
i love design school.
we are such nice ppl.
i love us!
XD
parents not going to home this weekend.
i have to cook dinner for my siblings.
have to do chores.
ZZ.
but at least i can stay out.
ABIT later.
i think my elder sis more strict den my mom lurh.
ZZZ.
dat bitch.
lol.
she just sleeps, wakes up, maples, eat, slps again.
PIG.
=x
k i dont wad else to say for today.
zzz. basically my mood was ups and downs today.
pttf. bye.
me_________`e-leen *
10:51 PM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
lucky i skipped de second briefing on mon.
my fever went up to 38.4 degrees C dat afternoon/evening.
if i had stayed, i would have probably died.
no 1) no energy
no 2) heavy rain would make things worse.
no 3) i think i can't make it home.
haha.
anyway stayed at home dat evening.
yea i know i was sick la.
but i was CRAVING for country baked pasta.
and leon dun wanna accompany me go eat.
=( and obviously its too dangerous for me to go eat alone ma.
i mean like, i'm SICK?.
lol. lazy pig.
was complaining to teh.
den he said next time call him. he'll go with me.
aww. haha. nice guy.
actually they all nice la.
but... you know guys.
pride and everything.
even if it IS their fault they probably wont say sorry.
LOL.
typical guys.
=p
-tue-
ok. was feeling better so i went for mass com talk.
so fun.
a few performance here and there.
prize-giving.
ohh. congrats to abby for winning best GL. =)
and congrats to shawn paul for best freshie award.
haha. shawn paul.
my fellow RARA cheerleader.
his name is darn cool man!! haha
ohh. rara means... SUPER ENTHU. =)
ended about 11.30am.
went for Brande lunch.
Basil joined us.
but we split still.
haha.
Basil all rich ppl. they went to eat Seoul's Garden.
boohoo.
while Brande ppl went to eat?
.
.
.
LONG JOHN'S
haha. we budget ppl.
anyway me and mayfen told abby we going to eat pasta mania.
cuz our throat hurts. and we can't eat fried stuffs.
so we went pasta.
shawn paul and eunice's group were there.
kenneth's their GL.
super funny i tell u.
i go like, "hi kenneth"
ken: "wad u all doing here?"
me: "oh de rest eating ljs"
ken: "oh."
me: "abby maveric they all"
ken: *excitedly* "abby?!?!"
me and may: "LOL why u so excited huh?!?!"
ken: *no comments look*
hahaha.
after eatin we went back ljs to find de rest.
me: "abby guess wad? kenneth they all eating at pasta oso"
abby: *excitedly TOO* "huh?!?! kenneth there oso?"
me and may: "LOL!!!"
started teasing them non-stop.
muahaha.
den they went to watch Ice Age 2.
and me being broke.
went to bball court.
muaha. typical.
alrights.
dats about it. =Dh
me_________`e-leen *
12:13 PM
Monday, April 24, 2006
had IAD briefing today.
am feelin sick.
urgh.
no energy.
decided not to go for the next lecture at 2pm.
omg.
weida came to eat lunch with me.
=)
zzz.
k nothing much.
feelin rather shag.
so.... i shall go sleep soon.
yawns.
maybe if i'm feelin better later i might go court.
IF i am feelin better.
zzz.
conclusion for de day: LECTURES ARE SHAG!! omtian-boringness.
me_________`e-leen *
1:38 PM
Saturday, April 22, 2006
OMG.
CAMP IGNITE ROCKS!!
wooooooh~
i love temasek DESIGN skool.
ROX!
haha. had soooooo much fun.
lazy to elaborate la. zzz but ya.
we won cheerleading trophy. XD
cuz got me ma.
LOL.
jk jk.
and i lost my voice.
LOL. bad.
anyway.
best part of camp.
JUMP AND HOP.
esp de one we had in Design skool.
omg.
like cubbing sia.
dj, music, lighting, lots of funky ppl, plus a smoke machine.
how cool.
only diff is... no smokers.
YAY.
ROCKS MY SOCKS MAN.
i love skool. XD.
i love DESIGN! woooooh~
me_________`e-leen *
6:44 PM
Monday, April 17, 2006
i feel down.
i hate it.
i hate the way people see me.
i hate me.
i hate my voice.
i hate myself.
i hate the way guys see me as "one of us"
or "brudder"
i fucking hate it.
what's your problem?
you like it if i keep going, "sista"?
fuck it.
and its my MANLY voice that's causing all the trouble.
face the truth.
abby thinks its not.
she thinks it's cause i'm chor lor and i play basketball.
hello?
i've seen alot more girls who are far more chor lor than me.
but yet they are not referred to as a guy.
and there are also alot of girls who play bball.
common la.
subconsciously.
its my voice.
I HATE IT.
its like, hello?
i'm a girl and you say i'm a guy.
do you know how much hurt that can be dealt?
oh ya sure.
"eileen don't look like that type thats easily offended"
i'm still human okay.
there's alot of "eileen don't"s that alot of people don't know about.
"eileen don't look like the type who reads"
fact: i'm a freaking bookworm who when engrossed in a book can be totally oblivious to the surrounding.
"eileen don't look like she's from express."
fact: i'm from tanjong katong girls school where there isn't even Normal.
"eileen don't look like she has high english standard."
fact: i can score higher marks for english than abby at times. and our english are both A-standard.
there's also those "eileen do"s that are freaking stupid.
"eileen look like ah lian"
fact: i'm NOT once you get to know me. fuck it. this is one comment i hate the most.
"eileen look like she's dao"
fact: omg. i think i am one of the most sociable and friendly girl ever.
"eileen look like the type of girl who is very strong inside"
fact: i can actually be very sensitive. in case you don't know, i can get hurt too.
that's just some examples.
i don't look like the nice type.
actually at times i can be even nicer than abby.
freaks.
everytime i see an elderly on the bus or mrt with no seat i'm willingly and glady give up my seat.
everytime i see poor kids doing flag day my hand reach for my wallet automatically.
everytime someone ask me to do something small, most of the time with one or two more times of pleading i would.
everytime someone gets hurt i'll make sure he/she is alright.
everytime when abby and me like the same thing i'll give in to her.
not just abby. i think most of the thing people want something, if i can give i would.
sweets/drinks/food whatever.
but of course.
no one knows.
everyone probably thinks,
eileen =
*ah lian
*rough
*noisy
*strong
*always cheerful
*not the nice kind
*cheena
okay whatever i have enough of listing.
freaks. i just feel like typing all this.
so let me type.
i hate me.
i hate me.
i hate me.
i hate me.
i hate me.
i hate me.
abby and gerald both said.
i should try changing.
change myself slowly.
its almost impossible to change yourself.
try it if you don't believe.
take abby for example.
its her to always care for people.
try asking her not to care for someone is like asking her to die.
its ALMOST impossible to change.
anyway i strongly believe its just my fucking voice that's causing all the trouble.
and you can't expect me to change my voice.
so.
shut the fuck up about comments on how MAN i sound.
fuck you.
i hate it the most.
"BRUDDER, ni heng MAN leh."
i swear i'm trying to control myself from shouting FUCK YOU.
maybe i should talk less.
but that would create another trouble.
see.
if i talk about people start going.
"you are so noisy"
if i shut up people will go
"whats wrong with you? someone make you angry?"
OMG?
WHAT DO YOU WANT EXACTLY?
TALK OR SHUT UP.
i'm an extremely person.
so its either i do something alot.
or don't do at all.
CHOOSE.
if not don't freaking complain.
AND WHAT'S FREAKING WRONG WITH SOME PEOPLE?
i hate it when some people go
"aiya you also no one wan to jio de la"
WHAT THE FUCK?!
even though i know they are kidding.
BUT STILL.
fuck you.
i can flood you with people who like me and liked me before.
*takes in deep breath*
okay maybe i'm exaggerating.
BUT THE POINT IS.
i don't know what point i'm trying to say.
just shut the fuck up.
i hate it.
i make myself a new rule.
everytime someone go "brudder"
i'll 1st tell him to stop it.
if he continues, i'll walk away.
and i did that once.
when weicong kept calling me that.
i FUCKING hate it the most.
I AM A GIRL YOU FUCKER.
IF YOU CAN'T TELL THE DIFFERENCE AND GO FUCK A DOG.
okay.
i shall cool down now.
alot of people think i'm the always cheerful, always happy-go-lucky girl.
maybe i am.
because no one really SEEN me cry before.
except weida, wanli and jie yun.
i was hiding behind a pillar at 492 RC.
crying.
then weida found out.
but i stopped immediately when they found me.
not like i want to stop.
i felt like crying that day.
i wanna continue cry.
but the tears just stop.
its not me to cry in public and in front of others.
i always cry at home alone.
i think even my family hardly seen me cry.
i hide my pain from others.
and take the pain away from others.
that's me.
that's eileen.
the one who always consoles and comforts people.
but never gets consoled and comforted.
i never show my true self in public before.
and i CAN'T.
even if i want to.
i'm restricting myself from doing so.
and i have no idea why.
the human heart.
is a confusing and misleading thing.
fuck it.
me_________`e-leen *
1:46 AM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
weee~ my com is back in action.
yays.
okay.
for one thing. my mom found out about my phone.
drat.
grounded.
well almost.
abby's type grounded.
LOL.
anyway, i've decided not to get any new phones for now.
scared.
i just want a mp3 for poly use.
zz.
next week school starts.
yays.
boredom at home shall soon be over.
although i din really stay at home much. =x.
k.
went to weida's bbq ytd.
his 20th birthday.
hahs. super fun.
weilun tong pang me there.
pasir ris park.
den ah seng called.
and i realised they had a bbq too.
and their pit was right beside ours!!
haha. talk about coincidence.
and of course alan was there.
glad to see him.
haven seen him for so long. missed him man.
super shuai ge.
LOL.
shall jio him out next time when he's free.
sit down and chat.
hahas.
anyway main point.
weida got sabohed.
and so did EVERYONE else.
lols.
weida smeared ketcup all over my face.
and daniel just used de ketcup bottle to throw the sauce at everyone else.
good luck to those ppl with white tops.
LOL.
and when i meant everyone, its really ALL OF US.
no one was spared.
lol.
i smelt like tomato.
yucks.
haha.
went home soon after washing up.
weida tong pang me to bus stop.
how nice. =)
haaha.
k omg. its like 1 am.
ZZZ.
me_________`e-leen *
1:03 AM
Saturday, April 08, 2006
okay i'm so sorry.
for no apparent reason my internet decided to stop working.
read.
its INTERNET.
my com still works.
not much use though.
so i'm now here at cheryl's house
expressing my apologies.
and why am i typing it such good english all of a sudden?
LOL.
anyway.
had training today.
erm.
rather cool.
cause for the 1st 2 hrs i was like, in charge.
wooh.
made the guys ran 5 rounds 1st.
then up 13 storeys of stairs.
up and down.
with timing recorded
timothy - [1st] 3.30 [2nd] 3.20 [3rd] 3.12
alex - [1st] 4.41 [2nd] 4.52
jun rong - [1st] 4.33 [2nd] 4.46
hahas. cool.
then made them did 2km.
with timing. =)
randy had a toe injury.
so we made him do lots of arm exercise.
HAH.
cool.
weilun is officially getting on my nerves.
URGH!
pest!
lol.
dumb ass.
okay anyway.
we have an official match next saturday at 5pm at sengkang.
k cool.
i strongly believe we'll return with VICTORY. =)
yup yup.
anyway.
I NEED MONEY.
omg.
zzzz
me_________`e-leen *
3:08 PM
